Yesterday morning at 9am, checking in for his (a 15-year old) 10th colonoscopy.
i was so caught up in who i wasn’t.
i remember having those thoughts on a regular basis for a long time – most of my life.
We see what we want to see.
Now i focus on the miracles God provides. Most of them are small, and often disguised as insignificant. But they aren’t insignificant. They are oxygen.
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A bed, a chair, a TV, a bathroom, a window, and a curtain for a wall. Three meals each day, 24-hour nursing care.
Most people wait for someone else to go first.
Walked over to visit with the 90-year old in the adjacent Nursing Home.
Just me and Johnny.
Johnny’s roommate was out, so we had privacy to do whatever we wanted.
Had intended to initiate “deep conversation”, but after arriving, i thought, “This will be so predictable and it has never worked.”
Instead, i just sat for two hours and watched the Clemson (#1) versus Oklahoma (#4) College Football semi-final playoff game. i added a lot of commentary (which is uncommon for me) and we had a very good time.
i wondered if he had hoped i would have gone with deep conversation.
i’ll never know.
i’ve surrendered and live with this being ok.
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On April Fool’s Day 2009, jeff noel began writing five daily, differently-themed blogs (on five different sites). It was to be a 100-day self-imposed “writer’s bootcamp”, in preparation for writing his first book. He hasn’t missed a single day since.
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When you support, encourage, and inspire others, something Magical happens; you discover support, encouragement, and inspiration for yourself as well.
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On April Fool’s Day 2009, jeff noel began writing five daily, differently-themed blogs (on five different sites). It was to be a 100-day self-imposed “writer’s bootcamp”, in preparation for writing his first book. He hasn’t missed a single day since.
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John W Jolin is subject to intensely hurtful and public dialogue. Photo of Twitter page from Google search.
John W Jolin is subject to intensely emotional social media campaigns. Photo of Twitter page from Google search.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for getting my attention in a profound way yesterday – the epiphany has brought solace and healing to my troubled spirit.
As i was sharing more of the story about John W Jolin’s desire to have me pay $7,500 for an absolutely (in my opinion) correctable, innocent, and microscopic error, i caught myself using unflattering language to describe John Jolin.
And then hours later, Gracious and Merciful Father, you revealed my sin in such a beautiful, simple, and loving way.
Even though i was talking privately to our Son (15), i was projecting the very same hurtful, uncalled for, irrational, and emotionally-biased opinions on John that he has been riddle with on the Internet for four years.
Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive me for thinking, saying, or doing anything that was avoidable or misguided. Instead loving Father, please cleanse my soul and fill me with unconditional forgiveness for John.
He is only doing what he believes in his heart is his duty to Linda’s Lyrics.
While i do not wish to pay $1,500 – the fee John has generously agreed to compromise on – i will gladly do it if it brings you honor. And even if it doesn’t seem to bring you honor publicly, it brings you honor privately, knowing that one of your children (me) has grown in the Holy Spirit of your likeness.
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